When we first created Speakfully, I put out a blog about what my own experience was that led to its inception. I still remember how terrifying it was to do - worried about judgement, worried about how people would respond. What actually happened was amazing. People I didn’t even know started reaching out to show support. Not only that, but sharing with me how much they could relate to it. Well, two years later, I’m ready to come even further out of my shell, be more vulnerable and dig a little deeper. In hopes again, that my story will resonate with others and show them that they aren’t alone.
As you read this, please always feel free to reach out to me if you’re experiencing something similar. I want this to be an opportunity to help others as I didn’t know where to turn.
So this begins entry one of six of my story. Yes, I said six...things are never as simple as they may seem. Nor are they simply black and white. Instead, there can be a lot of gray areas to navigate. While you’ll get to know me more throughout these six pieces I feel it's important to remember that I’m a go-getter when it comes to work - passionate about making a difference for any organization I’m with. So, when I’m unable to do that because of people out of my control, it’s impactful, and, regardless of whether I wanted it to or not, changed me as a person–forever.
My story starts in what almost seems like a past life – several years ago at a different job and in a different city. I had created and built an entire department and was the first person to hold the role that my employees were now doing. Everyday felt like Groundhog's Day. In other words, I felt like I was just going through the motions and I didn’t know how to advance in the organization. Not only did I not know how to do it, no one asked. So, when I was recruited by another company with the opportunity to relocate, start fresh, and grow and develop my career by reporting to a C-suite employee – I jumped at it.
Keep in mind... work was my life. No kids, not married. It was just my dog and me. I’ve taken any role that I’ve ever had very seriously and was always focused on how I could best help the business. I have always been very passionate about that and my work. So needless to say, when I felt like I wasn’t being used to my full potential in my current role and then was asked to actually do that in another organization that allowed me to grow, it just felt right.
Don’t get me wrong - it was exhilarating and exciting to be moving to a new city, a new state, a new home, a new organization, new people. BUT, it was also very terrifying. I hadn’t moved to a brand new place where I didn’t know one single person in over 15 years, when I had started college (which is a very different experience and feeling in itself). It’s a very humbling experience to move to a new place at 35 years old. Everyone already has their group of friends, and no one is necessarily looking for more. So, I knew it may take some time to meet my people. But in the meantime, I had my work, which leads right into the phase of where I was at with my experience.
What I like to call “the grooming” phase.
Thinking back on it, I realized that by my being single, alone in a new place, not having any friends, and heads down for my organization and boss, it made me a much easier target.
Little did I know at that time, my life was going to completely change in the coming months, and I definitely wasn’t prepared for it. I don’t think anyone ever is.
I’m so honored and feel so grateful that you’ll be listening with me on this journey and again can’t stress enough, I'm here for you along the way if you want to share anything that’s coming up for you within your own experiences.
Until next week...